that awkward moment....

So I shamelessly promote this show everywhere I go, I really think that everyone needs to come see see it. if you don't know me very well I am a watcher. I love to observe and people watch. so in telling these people about the show this is how it goes:

you should come see Rent its going to be so good I'm so excited for it to happen

yeah sure, what's it about?

.....and no matter how I put it I can't seem to get it across without the happy look that was just on there face being replace by a look of certain disgust. 

"omg strippers, gays, drugs and blow jobs, wtf is this show." 

I am unable to get the message across about love. how much love is in this show, how much love is in this cast community, how much love we all have for this.

I can't project to them the emotions felt during practice. 

I think I'm going to let everyone just shit their pants when they come to the show, I'm just going to start telling people the show is a love story and it all about love and it great music and a great cast. totally family friendly.

then when they show up openening night and see what they will see I hope they feel what I feel,
I hope they love how we love

I hope they measure their life 
  and yes I hope they shit themselves

Content and Context

i am so excited about the addition of Addam to our community. After hearing the whole group sing and each of the principles singing their songs, i have no doubt in my mind we are going to rock the stage. Such strong vocals, Such conviction, Such community.

I feel like i learned a lot tonight.

and i think Jessi highly underestimates how much i respect his creative vision right now.

i have never had what happened to me tonight at practice happen to me before in another show i have been a part of.

“what do you live in?”

“what’s inside that?”

“what street do you live on?”

“what are you doing right now”

“WHAT DAY IS IT?”

“do you have power right now?”

these are questions Addam and I were asked while READING through a couple of our scenes.

i found myself still asking question after jessi had moved on to the two woman only recognizable as maureen and joanne yelling at each other outside on the sidewalk in front of our practice space.

the attitude.

the bitchiness .

true devotion and true hatred both at the same time.

it was beautiful to hear them on the verge of scream at each other as they came up the stairs.

to see that it was only merrisha and sara

i didnt think i could find more meaning in the words i have been living in for the past week, but i found it.

i gained character depth,

i gain some helpful insights on the background of my character.

i gained an excitement i have not felt in a long time.

then i hear matt and brandon singing in the other room

my heart melts.

i hear victoria going out tonight

i feel it,

its there,

we got this.

i hope you all are as excited as i am about this, although sometimes i may not REALLY burst out in excitement, my heart has every intention.

but for now it all comes down to Content and Context
lets steady ourselves
focus in.
lights camera RENT.

This Coming Week

So i have to say i am a little bummed we aren't going to be doing any singing for another week.

But this is the technical part,

we have characters to be found,

connections to be made.

I think what we are doing right now is going to be well worth it when opening night comes.

no matter how much it sucks not to be able to sing all the melodies running through my brain.

So...

lets talk about this $10

although i could dig through my closet and pick out $10 worth of my own clothes purchased through thrift shopping, i still feel driven to take on this adventure.

its not about playing homeless, its about being able to relate.

when you break life down to necessities,

things get small.

while digging through Jesse's travel trunk with another cast mate

i realized just how small.

we talk about how Jesse scored finding an Old Navy top.

seems ridiculous to people who don't HAVE to think like that.

but to some one who doesn't have anything, they don't even see a name.

they probably think "Cool Shirt."

I am humbled to be a part of this show with all of you.

just at the read through tonight i almost shed a couple tears.

through hard work, and a little soul searching i think what we will have is something beautiful.

D.

Well That Was Interesting....

I should have figured something wasn’t quite right when they said we were coming to upstage for our first practice.

I could never have imagined the post-disaster zone that we walked into.

but talking to Jesse, after we conquered the beast of a task at hand, i understood completely on why this was the spot for This shows rehearsal.

We had to clean it.

We had to do it together.

We had to do it as a community.

What better place to humble ourselves at.

What better place than in the rustic upper building space that has long been deceased in downtown Danville.

The windows won’t be dark anymore.

I am so excited to be a part of this community,

I have the highest hopes for this show.

This has to be, hands down, one of the most well put together casts i have seen.

Congrats to everyone sharing in this experience, and fabulous job to the director and production team on the start to a beautiful showing of Rent.

D.